Twx's

Monday, September 15, 2008

Tired.. Yesterday was a real, bad day. :s
and it's so irritating to hear my brother quarrelling with his girlfriend everyday.
shouting and screaming to the phone like nobody business.
just because of some stupid things. SMALL SMALL thing.
so damn fucking irritating.
study study study. ~~fuck eoy!~~
~~tell me what's true. tell me what is friends.~~
what's the meaning of friends.
define friends. what is true, what is fake.
who is true, who is fake?
i needed you so much yesterday.
but i just couldn't say it out.
i almost went crazy, but i can't.
nothing i can do.
all i can do is to keep quiet.
and remain silent all the way.
cry myself to sleep.
i wanted to call you and talk to you so much.
but i don't have the courage to.
you won't want to hear my voice.
you won't want to talk to me either.
i don't know who to trust now.
it's so hard to know who is true, who is fake.
i'm so confused.
i don't know what's the meaning of friends. or rather, true friends.
maybe i have. but i just don't know who and where are they.
to me, you are one.
but, sometimes things just made me think over it again whether you are one a not.
i tried hard to let go of everything. depend on myself on everything.
but i just simply can't. i don't even trust my parents.
what to do? all i needed was you like the past, listen to all my shits and nonsense when i am troubled.
at first, i thought that friends are the ones who will always be there for you without fail.
the one who shares everything with you.
but now, i am thinking, whether am i right or wrong.
i don't know what's the meaning of clique too.
i can never feel the love of being in a clique anymore.
i can never feel the happy moment that i gone thru before, anymore.
i'm so tired, so tired.
i wished for one thing now, i know, you know, god knows.
iyl.